surrender to God

Losing Control

I must admit, I like to feel as if I have control over my life. Knowing what to expect, being proactive, and having a plan, all give me a sense of accomplishment. The thought of losing control will sometimes overwhelm me or even cause me to shut down. It’s just something about being organized that makes my soul happy. Don’t judge me.  😆 


The Wrong Path


As I was trying to think of someone in the Bible losing control, I immediately thought about Saul of Tarsus. Here is a man who did not follow the teachings of Jesus Christ. He was actually ruthless and relentless in his pursuit of persecuting anyone who was a believer.


Saul had complete control until he began to make his way to a city called Damascus. His plan was to capture the Christians that lived there and imprison them back in Jerusalem. However, on his way there he had an encounter with Jesus. At that moment, whether he knew it or not, Saul began losing control. 


Saul surrender


Have you ever taken the time to ask the question, “Lord, what do You want me to do”?  As you’ve read, you see that Jesus gave Saul an instruction to follow. The same goes for us. When we hand over our control to God, He will guide us from the wrong path to the right one.



After taking this crucial step by asking Jesus what to do, his life began to change. Jesus provided him with a new life and a new name. He went from being a Christian persecutor to being the Apostle Paul, who wrote over half of the New Testament.


Like Saul, sometimes we find ourselves headed down the wrong path. But be encouraged and know that there is not a path we can go down where God can’t redirect us.


Have you ever gone through something where you felt like you were losing control?


As for me, I’ve never felt more out of control than I did when I was going through my divorce. Where will I live? How will this affect my child? Will I ever heal from this? There were so many questions I did not have the answer to at the time.


Some of you may find yourself in a similar position. Maybe it’s not a divorce, but you lost your job. Now you don’t know how you will take care of yourself, let alone, your family. You could find yourself filled with anxiety during this shelter in place and feel as if you’re losing control of your sanity and reasonable thinking. Or perhaps your health or that of a loved one has taken a turn for the worse and you don’t know the outcome. 



There are so many circumstances that could arise to make you feel as if you’re losing control. With the world in the state that it is in, we don’t know if businesses will shut down or if schools will open back up to functioning as we have known it. There is so much uncertainty at this time.

Losing Control Can Be Beneficial


But take heed, Jesus has already overcome the world. So that in which you are worried or uncertain about, Jesus has already made a way for you. Losing control may not feel good but when you make the decision to lose it to Jesus, He will make all things work together for your good.


There is a song by Jonathan McReynolds called “The Best Thing” that perfectly describes why losing control to God, is always the best thing. Here is a snippet of the lyrics.


“I find my life when I lose it in you. 

I gain control when I give it to you.

I save myself when I let you save me. 

The best I can do for me is you.”


There is no better thing that you can do for yourself that is greater than giving your life to Christ. It is when you seek His Kingdom above everything else in your life (ie, FaceBook, Instagram, bae, work, etc), that all other things will be added to your life.

Seek God first


So don’t be concerned about things you don’t have control over. Be willing to lose control of every area of your life and allow God to do His work? You will never know just how God can move in your life until you are bold enough to say, “Lord, not my will, but may Your will be done.” Make the choice to start losing control today.


In Relentless Pursuit,

Brandi Michelle



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    My whole life I have tried to be in control. It’s hard to hand complete control over to Jesus. It’s done little by little over time, as we hear the Holy Spirit guiding us.

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      Lady Mel

      Good Afternoon,

      Please get out of my business. Lol. I’ve struggled with control my entire life. In 2018, I lost my job, a baby, and a college friend. I felt like I had lost all control. Realized all along that I was never in control in the first place. I gave it all to God!

      Excellent blog!

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        Brandi Michelle

        Sorry Chile, I didn’t mean to get in your business. Lol. Well you definitely had enough going on in 2018 that was all out of your control. Because you are still here, let’s me know that God kept you through it all. 🙌🏽

        It doesn’t make sense at the time, but God always has a reason for what He allows. As the old church would, “we will understand it better, by and by”.

        Thanks for sharing! 💞


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