Every year before school begins, I go and buy my daughter school supplies. One of the items that is always on her list are crayons. I typically purchase a couple of boxes to last her through the year because it is inevitable that she will break her crayons from being careless with them. Before we reach the middle of the school year, her crayons are broken in two, sometimes three pieces. The paper wrapping is torn or is no longer on it and they are no longer pretty and neat as they were at the time I bought them. Though they have been thrown around, dropped, stepped on, and mistreated, they still color. That is the beauty in brokenness. Regardless of what you go through in life, it does not change the reason you were put here on earth. Like broken crayons can still color, you also still hold value and have a purpose to fulfill.
“But I have nothing left in me to give.”
Have you ever felt this way, as if you’ve placed so much of yourself into something or someone that you feel as if you have nothing else to give, even to yourself? Life can be draining and when your spirit has been broken, it feels in that moment that nothing can put you back together. You begin to question every decision you’ve ever made because being broken leaves you with nothing but doubt. Typically this is when you begin to play the could’ve, should’ve, would’ve, which can easily turn into a dangerous game. I played it too many times to count and never have I felt better after doing so. “If I would’ve done this, that would not have happened.” ” I should’ve worked harder so I wouldn’t be in this predicament now.” If I could’ve done more, I would be further ahead than where I am.” Going through these scenarios are a waste of time unless your goal is to beat yourself up over what cannot be changed.
Focusing on what you did or did not do will keep you broken.
God says that there is no condemnation for those who love Him. That means that regardless of what mistakes you’ve made, He will not hold you hostage to them. You don’t have to remain in that broken place because you messed up. He has freed us all from being bound to our sins but Satan will continue to tell you lies to keep you broken.
You have been broken for a purpose but it is up to you to be open to find out the reason. Being broken doesn’t mean the end for you. Look at Jesus. He was lied on, talked about, betrayed, disrespected and beaten until His last breath, yet He still had purpose. The beauty in brokenness in the life of Jesus was that when everyone thought He was dead, when they thought he was out for the count, He rose up stronger than ever, with all power in His hands. That same power is in each one of us who believe in Christ. No matter what is thrown at us, we too can rise up and choose to be better than before. Don’t allow your brokenness to keep you from your destiny.
In Relentless Pursuit,
“Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Oh, give me back my joy again; you have broken me—now let me rejoice.” – Psalm 51:7-8 NLT